Your mother phones to tell you that someone you don’t even know has up and died-- 38 and with a blood clot to the lung. Used to be she warned you about reading in the dark and parking lots-- the men waiting under your car with lust and razor blades. Keep your keys in your hand. Never park by a van. Never walk by yourself and if you must, a can of pepper spray at arms-length in your bag. Don’t make eye contact, don’t give an inch, so many don’ts it’s no wonder language itself was born of fear-- the root of words first uttered to warn of danger, not unlike the instinctual tizzy my chickens make when a hawk wings the sky over their coop. Even trees release chemicals when distressed-- an infestation present, a giraffe hell-bent on its’ dinner of leaves, and that flock of birds perched-- you won’t find them remarking from their piped beaks the precious slant of light settling in their boughs like prayer, but a song instead for loneliness, an alarm for the dog that won’t let up the bark it wears.
And even the pretty ones—words for love or bloom, mother and moon—a kind of balm to sugar the worry of absence. We are irrevocably propelled to be in our living plagued with fear for all we stand to lose—and still, we’d rather the trouble of remaining our bodies-- oh Earth, how you must dazzle us.
-- Casey Knott is the author of "Ground Work" (Main Street Rag, 2018) and the hybrid memoir "This Season, The Next" (forthcoming, Cornerstone Press). Her work has appeared most recently in Prism Review, Gulf Stream, Storm Cellar, december, Contemporary Verse 2, The New Territory, The Westchester Review, Cimarron Review, Salamander, Sugar House Review, and Thin Air Magazine.