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Eliza Browning

Self-Portrait as a Deer in Four Seasons


I.            January

I leave before dark.                     The winter splits
             my deer-heart at its seams,
dissects the veins from my still-beating chest.
                           I am half in shadow, halfway between wood
and bone, the last of an endangered flock.
             Unwatched, I pass from one realm to the next.

II.           February

​In the shade, the half-light catches on barbed wire.
             Skin tangles on the fencepost,
strangling the thin pulse            of these diurnal hours.
             Thrashing in the dusk, we move between
the white-tailed days,
                           a creeping, crepuscular thing.

III.          March

We track the rhythm of their movements,
             migration patterns through the inner woods.
Pathology: winter injuries,
             a bleeding deer caught             on a fence,
lungworm, tufts of fur and blood;
             then leaving home to study.

IV.         April

Once, we found the body of a dead deer
             scissored in a field, its ribs sunken in the cave
of its chest. Coyotes had slaughtered it days before.
                           Its antlers          spelled out ten winters.
I was ten years old.
             I held the antlers to my head like a crown.

V.          May

How a body lies fallow with the changing of seasons,
             the hollow of its chest
still untouched.           Returning in the waist-high grass,
             we find the bleached spine and skull
resting in place, the limbs
             dragged off by coyotes only days before.

VI.         June

In high school my teacher explains the name
             of our capitol, a city that straddles the river cleaving the state.
Etymology of Hartford: after Hertford, England.
                          This is a locational name of Olde English origin
which derives from ‘Heorot-forda,’
             or the crossing place of the deer
.

VII.        July

I am the Hunter and the Hunted,
             a half-hooved thing, the Horned King
that hides in the underbrush.               There is no god here but myself.
             We’ll go gamboling through the countryside
ducking under branches, until we lose ourselves
​             in the still reflections                  on the surface of the lake.

VIII.       August

Listen now, wooded thing--
             as a child I saw men in fur coats
gut the belly of a deer.             It was cold outside when they opened him up,
             crucified on a post in the hunting camp.
Their long knives flashed
             until only bone and sinew were left.

IX.         September

Walking through the dew-wet orchard,
             our feet leave                damp impressions in the field.
The trees, whittled by beetles, are stunted in their decay.
             We bed down in the windblown brush,
the sweet decay of apples drifting over the bones of dormice,
             a rabbit rib sticking like a wishbone in the grass.

X.          October

The moon rises like an egg in the near-dawn sky.
             The crow flies at zenith.                          Primed like an arrow,
the night spits out flame, Artemis and her foxes
             baying for blood. The blood moon over the hollow
with its distant, indefatigable face.
             The rich-red of the sky and its battered yolk.

XI.         November

We travel all day and arrive at nightfall.
             For the harvest,            the men cure meat on sticks.
Janus the two-faced god makes a threshold
             of our village, pours out his offerings. I want to be of an animal,
my breached chest of tendon and marrow,
             my skin split and hung in the smokehouse for drying.

XII.        December

We take off running before morning comes.
             Where the wintergrass grows, the loam lies undisturbed.
There’s nothing around for the taking.
             Still, I linger in the frost. I watch the treeline at nightfall.
I am waiting to dissolve into the dark.
             I am waiting for them to come find me.
​

Plymouth County


I stepped onto the sidewalk
              from the darkness of the museum
and the sky set itself ablaze,

              the horizon shrinking exponentially
as it grew. We all think we
              have highway vision. The headlights,

blurring, tip into the long stream
              of traffic. The streetlamps renounce
the night to announce the day.

              Here, in the oldest building in the oldest city
in the second-oldest state,
              I spent my days searching for missing parts,

exchanging origins for the objects,
              tangible, I clasp in my fist. How cities
aid in their own myth-making.

​              Late summer, a scrim of salt on the harbor,
the white sails flagging
              as they went by, I remember last June,

in an older place still. The girl
              and I climbed to the top of the monument
where we could see five counties.

              The boy waited for me somewhere
on the shore of another coast.
              They would both hurt me without

knowing why. I would let them
              break me open without resistance, waves pummeling
cliffside until I opened my eyes

              to the sting of pain. An afternoon leaning
toward autumn, evening perched
              on the fencepost, settling over the terrestrial plain

while a few miles apart,
              their house lights blinked on and off. Slowly.
Repetitively. The obelisk hovering

              in the dim, shoring up the sins of our forebears--
all those pilgrims lost on stolen land,
              stranded on the shores of this old world.
​


The Sea Captain’s Wife Asks for Mercy at the End of the World


​The land turns itself inside out like a socket.
             Where there was once wetland, water cleaves to sky.
I think the sea is of one mind—when it breathes,
             the horizon flickers like some greater divinity stilling the waters.

So does my husband—when his ship leaves the marshes,
             I watch the masthead warble as the sun breaks over the bay.
No, I’m not from the sacred flatland. I don’t know how
             to dig in the sand for mussels, slicing my palms on their coppery roughness.

I don’t scour the slate streets of this old city for mercy.
             At the meetinghouse, the minister says a channel in his head opened
and in poured light
. Behind Friendship Street,
             the cemetery dead float below waterline in their graves.

Their widows wring grief out of saltwater, drag the windows
             of their homes in mourning. The canals open and water rushes in.
Here, on this not-an-island with its lighthouse flickering
             at the frayed edges, I tire of chasing down whales and men.

I wanted to be something empty, as open and perforated
             as a wound. So I became the water, the vessel which holds
life inside and out. I want to understand why this place is called Providence—
             who is saved here, who saves themselves.






--
Eliza Browning is a student at Wheaton College in Massachusetts, where she studies English and art history. Her work has previously appeared or is forthcoming in Rust + Moth, Vagabond City Lit, Contrary Magazine and Up the Staircase Quarterly, among others. She is a poetry editor for EX/POST Magazine and reads poetry for the COUNTERCLOCK Journal.

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  • Issue 22 Fall 2021
    • Issue #22 Art Fall 2021 >
      • Bonnie Severien Fall 2021
      • Camilla Taylor Fall 2021
      • Guilherme Bergamini Fall 2021
      • Emanuela Iorga Fall 2021
    • Issue #22 Poetry Fall 2021 >
      • Maureen Alsop Fall 2021
      • Annah Browning Fall 2021
      • Romana Iorga Fall 2021
      • Natalie Hampton Fall 2021
      • Sherine Gilmour Fall 2021
      • Adam Day Fall 2021
      • Amanda Auchter Fall 2021
      • Adam Tavel Fall 2021
      • Sara Moore Fall 2021
      • Karen Rigby Fall 2021
      • Daniel Zhang Fall 2021
      • Erika Lutzner Fall 2021
      • Kindall Fredricks Fall 2021
      • Cin Salach Fall 2021
      • Andrew Zawacki Fall 2021
      • Micah Ruelle Fall 2021
      • Rachel Stempel Fall 2021
      • Haley Wooning Fall 2021
      • Rikki Santer Fall 2021
      • Evy Shen Fall 2021
      • Suzanne Frischkorn Fall 2021
      • Danielle Rose Fall 2021
      • Eric Burgoyne Fall 2021
      • John Cullen Fall 2021
      • Maureen Seaton Fall 2021
      • Hannah Stephens Fall 2021
    • Issue #22 Nonfiction Fall 2021 >
      • Kevin Grauke Fall 2021
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      • Tina Jenkins Bell Fall 2021
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      • Aiden Baker Fall 2021
      • Jenny Magnus Fall 2021
  • Issue 23 Spring 2022
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      • Carrie McGath Spring 2022
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      • Erin Carlyle Spring 2022
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