Grief doesn’t bloom/doesn’t float but falls/shedding stillness until it touches black/the ship motionless on a mirror sea/becalmed a word for a state of mind that might mean trapped/might mean caught in an absence of wind/yellow fever took my wife/ my father dead too/America an idea on the other side of waiting/at night the sea creatures rise up onto my sketch pad/swim across my eyelids/when I get back I’ll turn them into light/dip memory in melted sand/memory a word that should mean forever but doesn’t/the color of her eyes wavers/the shade of her hair in summer/my father wearing a suit and folded arms/becomes watercolor/ his voice lost in breaking waves/the jellyfish glow translucent as they disappear/when I get back I won’t let them go/because replica is a word for a state of being so strange/it can live at depths where mortality is only a loose net of syllables.
-- Lori Lamothe is the author of three books of poetry, most recently Kirlian Effect (FutureCycle, 2017). Her work has appeared in Blackbird, Calyx, The Journal, Verse Daily and elsewhere.